day 6 – waking up

They say that waking up is hard to do … Now I know I know that it’s true
(a little play on song lyrics for us old timers 🙂
To every day there is a night and to every night there is a day. Never hold it against yourself if you “fall asleep” … back into illusion. Just remember to wake up every chance you get.
Day 1 of the COVID-19 quarantine I was awake, I was in motion, I started my seeds that I will transplant into the earth this spring. I was looking forward to this time off of work, the time to begin in full my personal journey of foraging, gardening, meditating, yoga, cooking, and writing this blog. And then …
Sleep … I have done little to nothing the last 6 days. I have eaten, slept, and binge watched TV. I have been overwhelmed and I have been trying not to deal with any of it. I am not working and have no idea when I will be. We are supposed to move by the end of April, and I have concerns that It will not happen as I would prefer it to. There is a part of me that says “what a waste of time”, all that “doing nothing”. But I see now that was the control freak in me.
DAY 6 …
Today I feel rested and ready to begin. The first thing to do … meditate … my mind was still so full of all the things I could do, should do, that if I did not start with meditation anything I did do would likely be a waste of time.
